Haley

spaz830@hotmail.com — Thu, 29 Aug 2002 01:55:12 GMT

Well yeah. I'm actually GLAD school has started. I like it. Yeah, maybe I'm just crazy...but that's okay. Maybe summer would be more fun for me if I had a car. But that won't happen for, like, another 2 years. Or if one of my friends had a car.....hmm...Jen is about 1.5 years older than me...so she'll have hers before me. Okay, why am I even thinking about this?

Um..yeah...sitting here. Talkig to Erin, Kat, and Tim...bored.

But yeah. I don't want to go to church or youth group anymore. but i guess i really don't have a choice, do i? i should emjoy it. whats wrong with me, damnit.

homecoming...to go...or not to go.....hmm. I feel like a bitch. I don't feel like talking to anyone. I just want everyone to LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE.

stop asking me stupid questions. you know who you are.

morons.

spaz830@hotmail.com — Wed, 14 Aug 2002 00:39:27 GMT

spaz830@hotmail.com — Fri, 09 Aug 2002 04:20:34 GMT

OMG, I CUSSED. I said f*cker. I NEVER cuss. I feel really bad now. I hate it when I cuss like that................it just slipped!

spaz830@hotmail.com — Fri, 09 Aug 2002 03:33:25 GMT

I'm bored. NO ONE IS ONLINE. Dang everybody. My addiction to music is growing. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. It's scary, lol. My all time favorite song is 'Alive' by P.O.D. It's a very awesome song and I love the lyrics. They really....umm...speak to me? lol.

Everyday is a new day
I’m thankful for every breath I take
I won’t take it for granted
So I learn from my mistakes
It’s beyond my control, sometimes it’s best to let go
Whatever happens in this lifetime
So I trust in love
You have given me peace of mind

chorus:
I feel so alive for the very first time
I can’t deny you
I feel so alive
I feel so alive for the very first time
And I think I can fly

Sunshine upon my face
A new song for me to sing
Tell the world how I feel inside
Even though it might cost me everything
Now that I know this, so beyond, I can’t hold this
I can never turn my back away
Now that I’ve seen you
I can never look away

chorus

bridge:
Now that I know you (I could never turn my back away)
Now that I see you (I could never look away)
Now that I know you (I could never turn my back away)
Now that I see you (I believe no matter what they say)

chorus x 2

Weeee............I love that song! :) It makes me happy. It's my HAPPY SONG!

spaz830@hotmail.com — Tue, 30 Jul 2002 02:06:53 GMT


*Do You* Need A Boob Job?**

Oh God...

Stupid little random test thingys...

spaz830@hotmail.com — Tue, 30 Jul 2002 01:39:22 GMT

Yeah, I'm bored....so yeah..

You’re Britney Spears! Face it, ya got it made. You’re sexy and popular, and have tons of people craving to be you. Sure, you’ve got some enemies out there, but you’ve also got a lot of people wishing they were with you. You’re the kind of person who knows you’re hot, and you’re not afraid to go all out to prove it.

What Kind of Pop Princess Are You? Quiz by Jonah

Your the thong. Your the spunky one out of all friends.
You keep having fun till it kills you. You always except a challenge and
never back down. You love taking risks and you hold nothing back.

Which underwear are you?

Sorry...

spaz830@hotmail.com — Sun, 28 Apr 2002 22:55:50 GMT

My LJ isn't going to be public anymore. I'd like to express more emotion in it and so I decided to make it friends only. Just post a message in here, and maybe I'll add you to my friends list. If I want to that is...

spaz830@hotmail.com — Thu, 31 Jan 2002 04:06:44 GMT

Yeah, there's this really cool song by O-Town...

'Standing with the wallflowers
Wishing you had stayed at home
You kick yourself for coming
When you?re standing there all alone
The centers of attention
Are busy making all their moves
While all the guys are looking at them
I've got my eye on you
Only you

You might think you?re nothing special
You might be losing heart
But baby don?t you realize
How beautiful you really are

Chorus:
Shy girl
It?s written on your face
A mermaid out of water
Feeling out of place
Shy girl
Trying to hide a blush
Caught you looking for a second
Felt my heart rush
Don?t run away
Don?t be afraid
Don?t be shy girl' (O-Town, 'Shy Girl')

I best be gettin' some sleepy. 'Nite.

spaz830@hotmail.com — Thu, 31 Jan 2002 03:38:52 GMT

Well, I think I had a good day today. We didn't have practice for Basketball today, though, because Coach was feeling sick. We don't have any practice tomorrow either. And we have a game on Monday, too. I think we need to practice. Oh, well.

We went to the orientation for HS today. We had to fill out our schedules and stuff. Well, there are my required classes: English 9, Health I, Physical Education, Physical Science II, Pre-Algebra. Then of course...there are electives: Spanish I, Study Hall, and either Life Skills or Band. I'm not sure which one yet, but I think I'd like to go to Life Skills.

Anywho. I went to Youth Group tonight, which I enjoyed very much. It was about judging other people. I know that I've judged other people, and most times not intentionally. But now that I look at it, I feel very bad about it. And I also know that I've been horribly judged many times before. Some people think I'm stuck up because I can be quiet sometimes(not ALL the times). Oh yeah, I've had people come up to me before and say I'm ugly right to my face, worthless..yada, yada. It's been worse. But you know, I don't really care anymore. It's their problem. If they don't like something about me then they're the one's that are going to have to deal with it - not me, because I like the way I am.

Yeah, anyways. I'm bored. There's no one on to talk to and I don't have any new e-mails! Buh bye.

spaz830@hotmail.com — Wed, 30 Jan 2002 03:48:50 GMT

Oh yeah, baby! The Warriors kick! We won, but I forget what the score was. I am such a forgetful person. Juli and Emily did an awesome job in the game! woo-woo! I got to play for a little while. I had 2 fouls. But, hey, I guess you can't be the best at everything, right?

My ear are ringing and it's starting to give me a headache. Stupid ringing sound..

Anywho.
Although I'm only 13, I know quite well what I want, I know who is right and who is wrong, I have my opinions, my own ideas, principles, and values, and although it may sound strange coming from an adolescent, I feel more of a person than a child, I feel quite independent of anyone.

I'm bored. I don't know what to do with myself.

spaz830@hotmail.com — Sat, 26 Jan 2002 03:44:33 GMT

Well. There isn't much to write about at the momento. Basketball practice tonight. Fun, fun. Erin still has a headache from hitting her head against the cement wall. Ouch. My friends make fun of me for the way I say comfy. I like the way I say it, thank you! ;) Alright..I've written 4 poems in my lifetime. A couple of them are half way decent - or that's what I think. I'm not a very good writer to begin with. But I think their kinda cute.
Peacemaker. Yep, Erin and Jen are fighting for some reason. Lin and I are always stuck being the peacemakers. Agh, how stressful. Things were going so well fo a while then-BOOM, their fighting again. I hate it when people fight. You guys need some Anger Management Classments(haha Jess!). Haha. Jen...STRAWBERRY! Hahaha! No..Bananna! Peaches and Cream! KIWI! HAHAHA. I still like Strawberry better, mmmmmmhmm! ;)

'A cheerful heart is good medicine.'(Proverbs 17:22)

I'm not eally doing anything at the momento.

spaz830@hotmail.com — Thu, 24 Jan 2002 04:26:27 GMT

Hmm...well I had Basketball practice tonight. I think I'm starting to improve...hopefully. So maybe - just maybe, I can actually play the game instead of being a bench-warmer, lol. Well, this summer I might go to a basketball camp with Erin. I think that'd be fun. She went last summer and she said it was pretty cool. Well, at least it's something to do because I have a feeling that this summer is going to be quite boring. I don't know..maybe not, lol.

I have the attention span of a 3 year old. That's a bad thing. But I'm a dreamer - a daydreamer. And I consider that a good thing. I like to dream. I have the hardest time paying attention in school. It's so frustrating because there are so many other things to think about and I just can't keep focused. I'm so glad we're starting our third quarter. A fresh start. I have a goal for the end of this year, and that's to get straight A's on my final report card. Oh boy..that's going to take a lot of work. Well, being on the gold honor roll is a start I guess.

I'm downloading a few songs right now..I have so many songs that I want to download. I have 45 songs downloaded right now. I need to get some blank CDs so I can use my CD burner and make myself a mix. Yay, that'll be cool. On Morpheus I downloaded: 1 vocal, 1 techno, 10 rock, 8 rap, 8 R&B, 8 pop, 2 metal, 6 country, and 1 comedy song downloaded. I made a list of about 50 more that I want to download, lol. Oh look at me...I'm just rambling on and on. I do that good(rambling) - almost as good as bench-warming. ;)

In my *real* journal(which is basically just a notebook, lol)I actually made out 2 lists: 1) My pathetic Guide to Perfection, and 2) Guide to the perfect Guy.
Haha, I am such a retard. Am I pathetic or what? lol.

Well, there isn't really anyone on AIM right now..I think I'm gonna bounce on outta here and go write in my *real* journal, lol. Byes.

spaz830@hotmail.com — Wed, 23 Jan 2002 03:18:50 GMT

Interesting...I just looked up what my name meant. Haley is Scandinavian for 'Hero.' Haha..now that's a good one. Well, not much going on in my life right now. I had basketball practice tonight. I think I'm improving. :-) Anyways...I don't think I'm going to be able to play very much - we have 15 girls on out team and a lot of them are wayy better than me! Well..I better bounce.

spaz830@hotmail.com — Wed, 16 Jan 2002 03:01:35 GMT

You know...it's very frustrating when a person can't understand their own feelings. I can't even say what I feel in words. I dunno. It's strange. I guess an empty and alone type of feeling...although I have no reason at all to feel alone..
Blah.
Anyways..I gave my speech Monday, and I got a B on it. Which is pretty good, for me. I get to go to Eagle Ridge in Galena I believe on Thursday and swim...for some special reason. I had to go to our Highschool orientation thing tonight and it sucked. My school has psycho teachers. It's not pleasant. Well, I better go, as there is nothing else to put in here at the momento.

spaz830@hotmail.com — Wed, 12 Dec 2001 02:18:47 GMT

Man...I do not like school at all. Blah. I'm not a morning person. I hate getting up early. We had to get weighed in gym class today. Poo. I lost 5 pounds. That's not good. I used to weigh 106 pounds but now I weigh 101 pounds. That's not cool. Agh. I now have to give a persuasive speech for speech class. I hate speech class - it's stupid. Hmm...what should my topic be? I have to have a topic by Thursday..hm..

I'm going to audition for our school play next Wednesday. And if I don't get a part in it then I'm going to be part of the Makeup/Costume Crew. I know I probably won't get a part - I'm not a good actress at all. But that's fine with me..I'm okay with that. Lets see here...Packers play again on the 16th I believe. yay.
There's so much I could write in this journal, but I don't want certain people to read it, lol. I'm hungry. Bye Bye!

spaz830@hotmail.com — Tue, 11 Dec 2001 03:34:14 GMT

My weekend was pretty boring. Friday night I had to babysit..and in the middle of the night my Aunts front door got egged, haha. That's funny. Then Saturday morning, I went to cut down a good ol' Christmas tree with my family. FUN, FUN. Then I went home...helped decorate the tree, and sat around being bored. Then Jon called. That helped cure my boredom. Yay. So, after we were done talking I went to sleep. I like to sleep. I slept for like 3 hours. Then I had to babysit again that night....blah. I don't have a life....or if I do, it consists of babysitting constantly. Argh. Yeah, so after the kiddies went to bed I talked on the phone....again. And I sooo hope that Galena isn't long distance, lol. Then I'll have to pay for the bill...lol..

spaz830@hotmail.com — Sat, 08 Dec 2001 04:02:10 GMT

Yeah, I'm babysitting. Fun. I'm tired. There's no one online to talk to. Blah. Tim burned the P.O.D. CD for me...how nice of him. =) Thanks Tim! Um, yeah, kiddies are in bed.......I'm bored. Nohing to do. I'm listening to 'Alive' right now. Great song. =) I have to go now. bye.

haley

spaz830@hotmail.com — Tue, 04 Dec 2001 03:46:46 GMT

Yeah, my day was really boring. We played basketball in gym today. Me and Erin vs Katie, Kim, and Jamie. Duh, they were complaing 'oh I don't want to play basketball I want to play lightning, basketball makes you sweat..blah, blah, blah' what wimps, geez. Who cares if ya sweat. Basketball is awesome. Thursday I have to give my 3 minutes speech. I will be soo glad when that class is over with. I don't want to give it.......*whines* Fuck it.

I've been really bored lately, and for the past fews weeks I've just been staying at home by myself. So, I decided to start on Tae-Bo...yippee...not. I started it like a couple months ago. I do have to say that I like the looks of my tummy now. I like Tae-Bo now. Yay. I'm bored. There's nothing to do. I'm watching the football game right now. I love watching football. Packers vs Jaguars. Packers are losing.....damn. Heh, I can't wait until the Packers play the Bears Sunday. Hopefully the Packers win so I can rub it in Jons face...MWHAHA.

spaz830@hotmail.com — Mon, 03 Dec 2001 01:38:55 GMT

Um, yeah. Today I went to church. I had fun. Yay. Anyways, it was only me and Ben for Sunday School because Stef and Nathan weren't there for some reason...So afterward I got talked into being in the Christmas play. I was really surprised, because usually no one can talk me into anything. But I was glad I went out for it too. It'll be fun. Anyways...I KNOW A GUY NAMED ALEXANDRIA! HAHA..it's funny. Um, yeah. I had a boring day and right now I feel like sleeping. I have a stupid speech to give Thursday.......I HATE Speech class..

spaz830@hotmail.com — Sun, 02 Dec 2001 03:20:10 GMT

Yeah, I'm babysitting my brother..yippee...I'm eating popcorn...yummy...

Anyways, I'm having a pretty boring weekend. Today I worked on my Speech on Hoover Dam and slept - fun fun! Tomorrow I'm doing nothing but going to Church and WalMart. Yeah, we're getting a new computer desk..now all I need is a new computer. Jessi stopped by my house today for a little while. That was cool. I've missed her since she moved to Davenport. I can't wait until I get to go down there and see her new house! She says she doesn't really like it down there...yeah, Dubuque is way better - right. Her little sister, Raychel, is such a cutie! =) Well, I better go. Bye.

spaz830@hotmail.com — Sat, 01 Dec 2001 04:45:43 GMT

I feel so worthless. So out of place. I was cutting my wrist tonight with a scissors...it was bleeding, now I have 2 scars. Oh, well. I'm babysitting right now. I'm tired...I wanna go to sleep...

spaz830@hotmail.com — Fri, 30 Nov 2001 03:59:23 GMT

I love Jesus.

spaz830@hotmail.com — Fri, 30 Nov 2001 02:16:51 GMT

Well, like many of my days, today was boring. I got up, went to school, passed notes and fucked around, then came home, ate supper, did homework, and came of this shitty piece of technology..went to youth group the other night..
so yeah, no life here.

spaz830@hotmail.com — Mon, 26 Nov 2001 01:57:27 GMT

I have the biggest headache right now. Ow. Today was a waste. Blah. B-O-R-I-N-G.
"There are times when I think that no one knows how I feel. It's a feeling that I really can't describe in words. We all want to fall in love. I know it. This experience makes me feel completely alive. Every emotion and sense is magnified a jillion times. Everything else seems shattered and unreal. Just..not alive. I don't know how long this may last. An hour, an afternoon, a day.."

Yeah, so it was weird. I was in a weird mood...anyways..I think you've heard enough for now.

spaz830@hotmail.com — Fri, 23 Nov 2001 06:15:49 GMT

HELLO! MY NAME IS JOHNNY!

.................

HELLO! MY NAME IS ROGER!

Haha..that song is so hilarious! I get a kick outta it every time.